Illusion Delusion; Reality Fantasy

Even in my dreams you remain an illusion

In reality, a delusion

 I see you from a distance

Constantly snooping at every instance

Just maybe we were not meant to be,

This pain I have known to bear

Time again and again

Where in the world

Am I to look?

Not that I have been the best,

But I know,

I ought to be among the many constants

That ought to swing the pendulum

Though I seek,

You are a mirage that will never turn a reality,

A fantasy that has stolen a heart from a far,

I knew that December when we met,

That you were not any good to my fragile soul,

Yet an innocent soul out for a thrill I was,

Encompassing all that you were!

It is yet another December,

Like a bad dream,

I hope I will wake to streaks of life,

Breathe a new life,

Into the past,

See a newer you,

Touch that shiny face once again

 As I held out my hand,

You wrapped me in your arms,

With a promise of us

Then I let you slip into the world unknown,

Trusting in every word that you said

Today as tears stream,

I reckon that you might be a happy soul after all,

For yours is to turn dreams into obscurity

Just what went wrong?